oh right, blogger
....gah, i find it so hard to bring words to my mouth. usually im vomitting up words but now itz a constant struggle to move my fingers. they feel numb...cold - watz wrong wid me?
everything is stoic, itz like im being locked in a room widin my heart, and peering out the window...itz so hard to write even this....the most surprisingly thing, though, is that ive continued to want to write Loki's Nightmare. im not sure how it all works out...but i guess in the end it does...maybe i haf to be stoic for wat im trying to write...
as for my time...i haf no clue where it goes. it just slips away through my fingers. no clue...no clue what i haf achieved today.
Bring me words
On a whim
On the flap
Of a bird's wing
Bring me tears
To shed
To waste
These hopes on
And allow me to be swallowed up by rose petals, completly oblivious to the thorns' pain
Updated Loki's Nightmare: http://fire-complex.livejournal.com
enjoy
i forgot to mention, happy birthday mom...with lots of love <3
2 Comments:
so hey, cools, u updating here. So the other is solely for the story, then.
Ure descritptions of being locked w/in ure heart reminds me of yesterday.
whew, that day, seemed endless. I felt like, so close to curling up in a ball and just cry and ignore the people working there. I was so close to that. And u know I would never lose control over my outward appearance.
keep writing ure story b/c it moves ure mind to other things. I cant say hang in there...cuz man, that is just SO bloody hard. And I just want to smack someone when they say that to me so...none of that saying to u.
i like ure poem, made me sad. Sometimes I like feeling sad, knowing I'm sad for others, makes me...more human and appear in the real world. Sometimes I wonder...about myself...anyways.
heh, at least we'll get together tomorrow ne?
I was so close, *puts fingers mili cm aparts* to not going tomorrow. But, *applause* my lying skills are absolute..thank the powers.
*bows*
good night.
seeker
1:27 am
lol so i heard...
i guess i gotta re-read wat i wrote. im not sad...per say? theres not ne thing to be sad about...jsut so...stoic. haha
but im so engrossed in loki's nightmare...im always thinking about it, like i told u :P i guess thats a good thing
i DO need a job tho...yeesh i need a job.
haha..we'll see, i think...if u say to me, "hang in there" i wouldnt mind, because rlly tatz all i need to do. i shouldnt rush myself, nor should i feel sorry for myself! hell no...maybe ive just been tired. but yeah..i think im pretty lucky to haf this time off.
just feel...so distant from everyone, but itz good i got to hang out wid u today. everyday i hang out wid someone i feel better - so be sure to talk to me often or else ill just rot away! :P
8:43 pm
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